Hey dere guys! hope u all doing fine!

Having fun lately, coz im living my life to the fullest. MSNing to someone ytd, that someone ask what im gg to do on my birthday, so that someone is shok after i reaplied somthing to him/her. Though life has it ups and downs, we as MAN have to take it like a MAN. MEMORIES may b beautiful but some MEMORIES is a pain in the ass. Those MEMORIES i had with her, those cute, innocent, pure love face of NURUL FIDA'IY BTE SAMSURI will never be forgotten. NEVER. I have learn my lesson the hardest way possible. What abt u? Eventhough we are apart i still do'a day and night for your health coz i know u are still under medication. It would be great if u are still with me now. I mean, at least i can bring u out, coz its school holiday.. Talking about that, im looking forward to this sch holiday to spend quality time with u. I got alot of suprises lining up for u.. But u went off too soon.

I told that someone, that I hav save enough money, more than enough to bring u to U.S.S.(Universal Studios Singapore) and RW(Resort World Sentosa) Before exams, i have alr book a room for us there. For 2 days one night. And Zak told me that u have been pplaning for my birthday and im so looking forward to it. But again, hajat tk kesampaian. Tak aper.. Nvm, Its going to be a Lonely 20th birthday celebration again. Y i say again???

Remember the previous paragraph i replied that someone something which makes him/her shock??? Well this is it, the last time i calebrated my birthday is when i was ONE year b4 nursury. My mum told me. Till then, i hav never celebrated my birthday. Im kidding rite?? The answer is NO IAM NOT. After school starts, my parents focus more on my education. Getting bitten up from them just because they want to see me successful in life. Presents??? Hmmm, my 1st present is when im in 1st year ITE. That was my 1st birthday present.

Till then, i hav no birthday present. Friends celebrate with me??? NOt a single one. I hav never had a surprise party like what i did for you.. Presents, like what i bought for you.. Im not comparing, justthat im sad that it has to end this way rite b4 my birthday.. When i heard that Zak tld me about u doing something, im looking forward man, its like a small kid, when a his/her mother says, "okay, later im gg to buy for u an ice cream" 3 yrs old, 4 or 5yrs old, will definitely looking forward to it. So what?? Its just an Ice-cream.. No big deal..

Ya riiight no big deal.. Eh hello! Knock ur head as hard as u can on the wall. Everyone deserve to be happy. Im talking in general and not shooting anyone. Deep down inside you, if u make other people sad or unhappy, it will still haunt u back. EVERYWHERE U GO, WHATEVER U DO. It will follow u. Don't let karma do something to u. I noe u will laugh if karma hits me in the face. But what if, karma hits u and it satys there bacause of ur sins? Think about it.

I noe, both of us (me and fhy) has make mistakes that we shouldnt do, but we hav to learnt from mistakes and compromise. I alr said "I'm sorry" sincerely to you and assure u that it will never happend again. U? did u do your part? No. U ran away.. I give u the benefit of doubt, just like what ive told that someone, Im your 1st guy, and changes in life drastically makes u feel uncomfortable and this is a new level in life for you to experience. im not saying that uare new to this subject. Im just saying that this relationship thingy, pressurize u in some way that u cannot take it and u just ran away.. Im not saying that u are a coward. NO! No one in this world is expert in Love or in realationships. Not even me. Their experince bring them to where they are now.

They share their burden. Share whatever as long as they are together as one. Experince is not u have to have it, or i have to have it, ITS ALL OF US. There are no formulas to Love, no direct ans to Love. Its about the heart. The soul. And the feel.

Now, after uve gone, i have to put "burden" that we are suppose to share at my shoulders. I can still tahan.

My last words for u is, being in a couple is hard and, commiting, making sacrifices, its hard. But if it's for the tight person then its easy. Looking at that girl and all she's u've ever wanted in life, that, should be the easiest things in the world. And if its not like that, then she's not the one.

Alright guys, Assalamualaikum.